nice to e-meet you!

welcome to my brain, it is 18+ only.
the longer i was in survival mode, barely grasping stability, it became less accessible to find myself as i was setting up the foundation of my life without any safety nets. there hasn't been any point where i wasn't worried about my basic necessities, even when trying to nourish my abilities, wants, or dreams. as i've also become more physically ill, i've lost the person i had always wanted to become even more so now. i wasn't given the space to do anything besides survive, until recently. this site is a place for me to dump my thoughts, and create my own little corner of the internet as i figure out what it means to me to be an adult human person in this messed up world.